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1. |
Rain
06:50
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you spent your first year gone inside electricity
flying through Mom, knocking her off her feet
what did you do to my throat?
whispering my name in my ear like a ghost
boys I can smell the salt
we must be so close
the fog in Port Orford
like a veil of smoke
age of action in a big red van
we couldn’t go any further west if we tried
I know I seem like I’m somewhere else
but you’re the only reason I’m left alive
the blood borders the flame
gasoline your hands soak and wring and shake
a desperate head with eyes erased
turned in you speak yourself goodbye reverberate
when I look into water I see God
if we’re made in your image then why not
small rewards for staying alive
faders & peace. Flint in their teeth
I’ve spent thousands of hours of this life of mine
in dresses in my sleep
it’s been ten years since I've seen you
now you’re younger than me, you couldn't understand why
why I had taken so long to come visit
you didn’t know you’d died
the sky wisps underneath itself
small voices out the window
pizza and beer on the lawn
I wanna be a mom
I always dreamed of dying by the ocean
in the grass by the edge of a cliff
sit with the clear blue sky
take my dose and sink
when you are alone
when you are in pain
you can hear me in the wind
you can feel me in the rain
Dad slept right by your crib
little lungs wheezing out and in
she walked on water that Wednesday
I held her foot until we flooded the stage
this is where we sat and watched
as the thunderstorm rolled in
but you were alone
yeah I was alone
and maybe that’s the only way I could ever be happy
I’m not here. Everything is a dream. The present doesn’t exist. I don’t recognize my hands, legs, face, or voice as my own. My vision is blurry. I don’t hear or see things normally. Everything is hazy. I blank out. I’m not here. I blank out. I’m not here.
serving size fireball in the dirt outside the church.
when you kill the rabbit you become the curse.
I wanna leave but I can’t god dammit.
he takes off my clothes and tells me it’s magic.
at thirteen years, I could tell that you knew
is this the last time I’ll be seeing you?
I could feel the love in your eyes
I know it hurts. I want you to be alright
sweet angel, do you remember how you had to leave
the basement where you sank below my feet
the vomit and the pain and the shit on the bed
wherever you are now, I hope you can forget
my hands are dripping with empty answers
the summer after fell like a ransom
we’re all so lonesome in your kingdom
I can’t feel anything
when you are alone
when you are in pain
I can hear you in the wind
I can feel you in the rain
washed in golden light, I watch you
disappear down the storm drain
burn you away in the middle of your lake
damned to dream of your face
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2. |
Every Other Note
03:40
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they bulldozed the sanctuary
took it all away from me
you told me never to write
about you so I won’t
I’ll remember you in
every other note
every single thing. the coinstar
the toddler in the toy car
the rain in my shoe
makes me think of you
disappear into the void
of black bean patties
demonoid pink to the spine
your persistent memory
you told me never to write
about you so I won’t
I’ll remember you in
every other note
I’m so glad I waited for it
my first time in a forest
so young but I knew what was important
instant coffee in the morning
we need to make a point
of doing this our whole lives
packing up our bags
waking in wild light
you told me never to write
about you so I won’t
I’ll remember you in
every other note
I know I’m not always patient
I know I’m not always kind
I’m working to be better
I swear to God I’m trying
all I wanted was to love you
deja vu about deja vu
this route’s so strange without you
lungs like a pipe organ
counting bunnies every morning
they broke her leg in the spring
she held it up all summer
last time I saw her there was snow on the ground
somehow she stuck around
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3. |
I'm Gay
03:16
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voice in my mind
new nightmare today, saying
I can’t hide my dick curse from my face
social isolation, nothing to show for it
I don’t exist
my fucking days were long over by 26
I’m the quintessential incel fail child faggot
gaze into your eyes
kiss the abyss
all the people clap and
cheer when I say I’m gay
I don’t want to live life
I want to fade away
wake up get out
walk down the alley
come home clean up
drown in spaghetti
cuddle, call me the wrong name
I’m scared to say no when you beg
hold your torso over the road
vomit red out the window
you’re cheating on me I know
but I love to make you laugh
angelic kissing in the bath
Is This Real?
Terraform
Have a Nice Life
Gang of Four
I’m backseat, he cucks me to Spiderland
please hold my hand and touch my ass
take down all of the mirrors
try not to see myself
don’t look forward or past
each day living is hell
mushrooms nutmeg
growing my titties
push-ups jerk off
cock is spaghetti
call me brave or call me a boy
I am the one that I will destroy
and you are the cutie I’ll always enjoy
I love to make you laugh
toasted kiss in the bath
Autechre girls
theory girls
Motherbeat girls
stay inside girls
Sun Ra girls
wolf moon girls
speed game girls
die fast girls
your smiles make my life okay
so fuck everything they say
kill God and take the throne
and we’ll build a world of our own
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4. |
Shotgun the Sky
06:23
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I can't stand on the edge and lie
I can't handle the way you shotgun the sky
when I drive back to the cities
it feels like a suicide
I can see my failures
in the skyscraper’s shine
driving naked through the summer
burning sweat all over me
I walk down to the ocean
I wash myself clean, I wash myself clean
I felt every word in the water
sleeping in the strawberries
if you look close enough
I am a factory
the shark can smell your lips
like weaving pikas upon Titus
shake me by my shoulders
love me as the morning cuts
I wanna harness the power of the sun
I wanna apologize for everything I’ve done
I wasted my life
I hurt you
I’ve been really dumb
I can't believe this year
was anything more than an anomaly
a dick is just an object
haunted daydreams and memories
safety pins in socks
lavender my cummy clothes
little in the laundry basket
underwear on the road
shadow people stroke my veins
magic stacked like dirty plates
smokes and suffocates
I’ve seen things in the sky I can’t explain
when I drive back to the cities
it feels like a suicide
gasoline kills me
gasoline keeps me alive
I can't stand on the stage and lie
I can't handle the way you shotgun the sky
I can't stand on the stage and lie and lie and lie
I don’t remember your face
I put my hand through glass and
scream up on the mountain
I miss what I've forgotten
I tried to talk. I tried to be friendly. Contacts and networking. It’s Saturday. I’m stalling for time eating a blueberry muffin. There’s no reason for me to hurry home. I’m nervous, I can feel disaster. The moon is up. It’s as hot as those summer nights at the lake as a kid: humid, sticky, you’d lay in your tent wishing you could fall asleep but all you could do was sweat. I wash behind my ears. Floating geese and clouds. Weeping children, pain in my legs. There needs to be a better way for us to keep ourselves healthy. The meadows stolen, the fireworks in the church bells. Most of the street lamps are burned out, including the one we’re parked under. There’s barely any light pollution. We can look up and see the stars. We trade watch duties. One of us keeps an eye on the car while the other turns their head and stardreams. I imagine the usual things: Are there aliens out there? How big is infinity? Is the universe meaningless? Are UFOs from another planet or are they all CIA? How many relationships have I fucked up during my lifetime? My high-definition television showed up at my house yesterday and I opened it and instead there was a high-powered rifle. I watch the car. He worked in the steel industry. It was good steel, affordable steel. The company was partially responsible for the Flood. But back to making friends, it’s necessary for business. I know that you try to find numbers and patterns in the universe, that you find solace when you think you've found order, that it soothes you. It will let you down in the end. You will slip into the abyss, a crisis of allergies and mesh surgery. To ensure that you get paid, please kill the man slowly and in an avant-garde fashion. Include the invoices. Email is not an option. Feel free to call.
fate
wide-eyed and late
I miss you
forever and soon
it's beautiful out here
dark in the dawn
I did wrong once
I'll do it again
get in the ocean
goodbye kiss
I don’t know why
but I wake up in panic
you’re the light of my life
why would you do this?
I can’t stand on the road
in your breath and secrets
the wilderness
is a funeral on your body
to be ready for everything
you must be happy
I don’t want to watch
your final moments
I want to pretend
you’ve awakened from your coma
baby I told you
I'll fall right through
the sky you shoot
I told you, I told you
it's dark in the dawn
and reality is near
that universe is gone
and this one is here
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5. |
After the Show
06:28
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easy and easing as an ember as
Spirits held me, the ground turned red
whistle in the dark as I cross the dunes
make yourself big so they’re scared of you
the light sitting soft in the dust
quivering its hello like a ghost
cold clouds in the Dakota distance
this place will be alright without us
the siren pulls in the driveway
my hormones are exploding
turn up the stereo til I’m back
to where I was before the morning
ripping adam’s apples
from me & my siblings’ throats
dropping them in a pool of chocolate
to see if they would float
to make present the whole world
to have done nothing no longer trust
I walk by the light of Saturn
in the dirt in the dawn I woke up
deleuze and guattari
critter and guatari
when I leave my note it say
sorry not sorry
every day, more and more
I’ve never seen those eyes before
I wasn’t a cool dude
I never bought blue food
missed a lotta nutrients
got a depressed mood
shit kid, look what ya did
mixed up the height and the width
now the moon sets backwards
my ma called me a bastard
all my favorite singers couldn’t live
is that the end to this
look at my face
tell me I’m shallow
I built my own duct tape
gallows
the river hung there
with windswept hair
I’m crossing over into your mind
you don’t wanna know what it’s like
I’ll see ya on the flipside
when we’ve all been dead and lived again
and dead, and lived, and died
a warm night
we all fly
an orange glow
above us waving
does your Sky
mirror mine?
our homes bleached
and vacant
I’ll make sure to write
all the time
and I’ll try to stay
on top of the changes
once in a life
wolves pass you by
Earth unfolds
through all of her ages
I don’t want
to say goodbye
but honestly
it doesn’t make any difference
the chances are good
that’s exactly where you stood
those were the best days
but now I’m headed west
I don’t want this
to be the end
an orange glow
upon the pavement
if there’s something I forgot
call me up and let me know
if there’s something I can do
hunt me down after the show
if there’s something I forgot
hit me up and then we’ll go
and if there’s something I can do
you know I’d do anything for you
wading and straying between
I climb high upon the tree
the branches hold me free
I never wanna leave
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6. |
I Never Wanna Leave
02:12
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Nora Nygard Minneapolis, Minnesota
I've always been searching. Drumming in punk bands. Singing into a cassette mic alone. Trans angst, alienation, going on the road. Synthesis, tape, poetry. Two failed tours, two failed degrees. Reclaiming my voice from the choir, reshaping my voice after punk rock. Years of isolation, hormone therapy, production studies, and hundreds of releases with various projects. ... more
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